A normal Monday night, spent in watching TV together with my mom and sisters. My 5-year old niece bragging about her good performance in school then suddenly came her out-of-the-blue question: Kelan kayo ikakasal ni tito Alex?

My mother was fast to respond but rather with a shocking answer: Hindi na, kasi patay na siya.

Then my sister (in an effort to console me) added: Marami pang ibang darating sa buhay mo.

I was left with nothing to say. It seems that they've already reached a conclusion. And what am I supposed to feel? I understand them. The statement is but valid and more so, logical. My boyfriend has cancer. Last April, his cousin texted me and told me that he's in ICU. And that was my last info on his condition. Until now, no one from his family bothered to update me.

And what's the used of me telling this. Maybe because of one thing. I was hard hit by that statement. Yes, I've avoided that idea so many times. I really never thought of that. Until last night.

Here I am with all the hopes, without even knowing that people around me are already resigned to the idea of my boyfriend's death. And I just feel so alone. Battling this fight all by myself.