What do you want me to learn, God? Im amidst no ordinary situation now. My heart starts to fail and I guess Im continually losing grasp on things. Im afraid to be swamped by this pain but I cant help but be consumed by this misery. Sorry. Maybe Im just focusing much on my situation instead of seeking your mercy/grace. I don't know if I can hold on anymore, but please sustain me Lord!! Please teach my heart to be still. Let me see You in control of everything.